Live from Mumbai

Coming live from Mumbai...it's Mary J...wow!! it;s finally here..the training of all training...it's The Business Of Training. Nervousness setting in, excitement somewhere in between, palms are a bit clammy,heart beating a little faster, what to expect? who do I meet? Act and BE confident!!! Thats the key.Be myself and all will be fine.

Wish me luck!Good luck Mary!! You are the best!

The One

This morning while getting ready for work, a thought came to my mind about finding "The One". Who is "The One"? Where can I find him, will I know if he is "The One" and how will I know? All women go through this stage of asking this question I think, and now it's my turn. Having loved and lost-heart broken...is there truly "The One" out there for me? Is he also going through the same motion-wondering where he can find his "One". Are men just as anxious as women are when finding love? They are better at hiding thier emotions than women are...

The One-I would love to meet him someday..I hope he is looking for me. Come find me quick, save me from myself, save me from unwanted temptations..that are everywhere...

Maybe this hope of finding "The One" will keep me focused, and help me move on...I admit I AM a bit shallow.. I'm trying to see past the physical aspects and look deeper into the heart because I have learnt that most of them who look "beautiful" are snakes in disguise.

So, here's to finding "The One"...let's hope it's worth the while..

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A new Chapter.....

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CHAPTER CHAPTER

BEGINS......... BEGINS..........

My Adventure

I'm just back from my little adventure and boy was it really!! It was absolutely amazing. The beauty, the people, the company-everyting and more than I ever thought. I told myself that I would enjoy this vacation even if I was going alone and I DID!!! I'm glad I did coz my heart is aching now-at least this trip can help me ease the pain I'm feeling. Whenever I feel it, or it creeps into my mind/heart- I will recall all the brave things I did and accomplished. If I could go on a trip to a place I barely know, then I face almost anything!
I took a journal with me and logged down my thoughts and feelings without missing a beat, it was my confidante of sorts when I was lonely or alone. In quiet times, I sat with my book in hand and wrote anything and everything that came to me.
I'm recalling two songs from Gabrielle " Rise Again" and " Out of Reach" songs that have been my companion in times of healing, and they are with me once again, for it appears that I need to do some healing fast!
But hey, this is about my adventure- not sappy story!!! So get out of this rut, Mary you are a brave and strong woman and are deserving of so much more!

Off to my adventure

I more day to my little adventure! Boy, I'm nervous and excited at the same time..I've done most of my packing..I'm to go as an Indian national( all hush..hush and undercover..hahahaha) so weird..just to get discounts, I need to be a different nationality( although I AM an Indian by race.) but right now I only wish I knew Hindi! hmm...Hindi bolna?? Thoda..thoda...damn!!! that's definitely not good enough...
I went shopping today, went to get stuff for my trip too...did a lot of thinking too...a lot...about the same subject!! Why??? Why??? Anyway, I feel a tiny bit better now. I need to get plenty of sleep for sure or else I will be zombified and ruin my trip. I will be HAPPY!!! Heart be Happy!! Good thoughts! Good thoughts!
Relax.......take it easy..chilll..(wz a triple "l") It's my day off so...don't do heavy thinking...keep calm..

Bored@ the office

I'm currently sitting in my lair...if you can call it that..(my office) actually..feeling like time has frozen or at least ticking by soooo very slowwwwwwwwlllllllyyyyyyyyyy! It's a bloody Saturday and i'm working..I did'nt get much sleep last night-my brain was overly active(no clue why!!!)
So am not in a grand mood either..a bit catty I must say..often times wanting to snarl at people instead of smiling at them.
I'm going over my list of things to do and guess what..most of its done amnd am only waiting for replies or responses..and it's the coming of the holidays here..so yippie!! I'm going on a self adventure!
Now, that- I have not done in my entire life!! so this is a first for me...hello world!! here I come!
I don't know what to expect actually coz i'm not from around these parts but I hope to have a blast and live to tell all about it!
but back to my office -hahaha..I just realized that i'm blogging from my office..and that is a no-no..I want my bed or room! I want to just laze around for a bit!
Stay postive Mary!! Don't lose focus....think good thought and that will keep you going!
Every few seconds, i glance at the clock hoping it's time to knock off but it's only 3.40pm, another 2 1/2 hours to go :(
I checked out all the different websites I go to....what else is there to do? Think Mary! Think!!
Be useful and productive -I don't want to think!! (my mind is fighting back) My mind does a lot of unnecessary thinking...about anyting and everything...stupid, silliy mundane things....and at the most inappropriate times!! Like when I'm trying to fall asleep!!! (I'm snarly again..)
Oh well..so now I've even written in my blog...so what else?? i'll go find some things for e to do...

nothing much

It's October now...nearly a month since I last wrote. I was watching "Friends" the other day, well actually every day and I was wondering if there were any group of friends who resemble the cast in real life. I mean, in the sitcom they all joke around even on serious stuff...like when Ross's laptop crashed coz Chandler read an e-mail containg a virus...I mean if it were me, I would have lost my top and thrown a tantrum for at least 1/2 hour and then I'd gripe about it again and agian. Sometimes, I envy them...the characters of Friends coz they have such carefree lives and have each other all the time. Even Joey moves out with the Bings to thier house!! Why cant friends stay together like before, why do they go away? I'm looking forward to meting my friends in Dec...yay!!!! Can't wait! Ahhh...well..that's life i guess....