Back Home

I am back home for the holidays. It's good to be back with the family,the familiar surroundings,smells,sights,craziness, my cats,my room. Meeting friends certainly made the trip worthwhile too. I cleaned today, not having had the opportunity to do so in quite a while....it's so theraputic.It's been a trying 4 days also, having to see my mom's health slowly ebbing away. I feel a little guilty sometimes for not being here for her. She is alone and lonely, removed from everyone-I try to understand her but it's hard. I'm going over some sites to help me understand her illness and maybe find ways to try and deal with her condition. I pray every night for God to give her peace and I trust that HE will provide for her.I feel grateful that I have friends who are understanding and want to help in any way possible. When my brother's down, we will discuss what the next step will be. but for now, I'm glad I'm home and able to spend as much time as I can with my mother.

The "Onion Group" strikes again!!!!

Well, the "Onion group" delivered on their promise to lock us in! When we all arrived for our morning meeting at 9.30am this morning (8/12/08) we were all locked in with the exception of our "mini GM" and HR Mgr who were called out for negotiations to their demands! They did not even let us go to the loo at one point and we had to argue for a while for them to finally allow us to go. Of course food and drinks was out of the question! It was a small room however and there were about 10 of us there,so we played games and kept ourselves occupied. We covered all sorts of topic from politics to religion to mundane stuff just to make sure we were always in high spirits. Amidst all this, some of us even managed to catch some zzzz's...
Suffice to sat it was a real emotional ordeal but we tried not to show it, while all this was going on the group themselves parked in front of the meeting room, though I'm pretty sure they had food and drinks!
After about 6 hours in lock down, the issue was finally resolved! What an ordeal! After which then group had the audacity to "thank"us for our cooperation! This is truly an experience and one that will be in my memory for a while. I don't know if there will be anymore of such acts but there is always a first for everything and THIS was certainly a first!
So I'm now counting down the days,eagerly waiting for my departure even for a temporary while away from this maddening place!

10 more days

10 more days to go!! wohooo!!!!! This anticipation is killing me.Time seems to be moving too slow. I've been so efficient that I've even finished packing,done my Christmas shopping, now all I need to do is to wait!! Wait!Wait!!
I'm listening to INXS right now, ahhh...I remember driving in my car on my way back from JB-Kuantan,the music blaring loudly to keep me awake on my journey..those were the days. I haven't driven in 6 whole months..it'll feel a bit awkward I suppose.
Well, tomorrow apparently our good people from the "Onion group" intends to lock some of us inside the office over some dispute that is not our fault anyway! Well, let's see what will happen! It's a bloody farce I tell you! The only thing these guys know how to do perfectly is going on strike and locking people up!
I really cannot wait to get out and let my hair down! Ahh...to be back home with my family and cats and bed...10 more days and counting!!!

Looking for Rex!

I WANT A DOG!!!! And I specifically want THIS one!! I'm thinking that if I write it down maybe the universe will send me one! (Interval..It's Beyonce!!! If I were a boy") wohhooo...I so LOVE this song!!!

Ok..back to my dog! It's a lab and his name is Rex! That's what I'll name him and he'll live in a big house(corner lot) of course with lots of running space!! ahhhh...I so want a doggie...

OK...so universe..do your thing!!

a lot of stuff

I'm sitting in my room going through pictures of yest years...all those wonderful moments.I laughed aloud reminiscing old times.It's not like I'm that old! all the more I want to go home soon. I can't wait! It feels like a drag...looking back I think I've grown up a lot,from the way I looked and my dress sense..I suppose. Don't know if I HAVE a dress sense! I'm listening to Hitz.fm and David Cook is on the radio...ahhhh...sigh!!!!

I'm having trouble sleeping these past weeks, must be coz I have so many things on my mind..plus the idiot box is trying it's best to hypnotize me and making me watch all these tv shows which in the end proves useless to me! Well at least the Travel & Living is good,that's my whole addiction now,ever since it came I've been like a "jakun" not wanting to miss anything!!!!

I have a mind to place a sign on my TV saying "the Idiot Box-the biggest time waster"! Tonight I aim to go to sleep by 10pm! I will not compromise this and I will have to..HAVE to get up and work out!!!! It was a regular activity for me but ever since winter came I've been like a bear, only wanting to hibernate and not get up!!Help!! Help!!! The chamomile tea helps a bit..it sooths me..but I cant be drinking that all the time! Today I wanted to go shopping but then I decided to forgo it -been shopping quite a bit lately-must be therapeutic, probably that's the only thing I can do! I wonder what I'll say in briefing tomorrow, sometimes I feel so pressured to say something or else the GM would say.."What,sure you have nothing to say??" What's with that??? If everything is said before, then what else to say?? Morning meeting is the worst part of the day for me...maybe I need to tell myself that it's the best part of the day.coz it IS a meeting/briefing;there must be something to say. Most of the time, meetings can turn into lectures in some form or other..and it's constant repetition of the same thing!! I really wish I could shake some of the people here!! SHAKE!! SHAKE!!! Give their brains a Big jiggle in order to work.

I wonder...well here's to going to bed early and getting up early too.. :)

Change is coming!

I've got the dreaded flu!! I hate being weak, nose all runny,eyes all watery..recovery taking too long, I have so much to do!I'm contemplating my i week in Mumbai. Though it's already now 2 weeks since I came back, so much had transpired there and still the activities and converstations are fresh in my mind. I did a lot of "reflective" thinking while I was out there, had some eye opening conversations too-boy sometimes you can't see who you are till someone tell it to your face! It was so good to hear the truth and now it makes me want to push myself even more!

Meeting people from the other parts of the world gave me a real jolt-damn, so many of them are good! Where do I fall into all this? I asked myself. Why me?? Well there must have been some reason I was chosen, right? Then, I realized there was. I learnt to not take charge for once, to let others do the work, I sat back and observed and facilitated...it was a strange feeling..but I got used to it,finally. I think I did a pretty good job too. I became mentor to some...that was a great feeling-to be able to contribute to something.

But more than that, I realized that I had a lot of growing to do. Enough of playing-it was time to take serious stock of my career...I knew that if I wanted to achive my goal..I had, simply had to get ahead!

Change- is what I'm aiming for..just like Barrack Obama wants for the US...."Change is coming" he said...well it certainly IS, for me! I WANT to change, I WILL change, I AM change!!!

C H A N G E.........

Live from Mumbai

Coming live from Mumbai...it's Mary J...wow!! it;s finally here..the training of all training...it's The Business Of Training. Nervousness setting in, excitement somewhere in between, palms are a bit clammy,heart beating a little faster, what to expect? who do I meet? Act and BE confident!!! Thats the key.Be myself and all will be fine.

Wish me luck!Good luck Mary!! You are the best!