My other cats....

My not so alive cats....better than nothing...

Jabbering!!!!

ahhhhh......what a hectic day!!! Had a good day though, gave a session on the environment and how to conserve wenergy etc..there were however some iritants who really got under my skin..I have to try really hard not to let them get to me! Well at least I can be proud to say that I do my little bit to help the earth..I now use a cloth bag for my shopping :) I try to use the stairs and even save water ...every bit counts. I even recycled one of my fav blouses into a sort of "art deco" piece..well it's art deco to me at least! Anyhoo...I'm trying to relax a bit..and try to find ways to not worry so much ..I AM a WORRY WART! I worry about almost everyting and it's driving me nuts!!!! I read all these self help books and for a while I feel good but then my mind starts to spiral out of control..weaving in and out of thoughts, ideas, scenarios..God only knows where it stems from!! Anyway,...now i'm trying to take it slow....doing what I like doing..and hopefully I'll recover from this madness...

My cats..my obsession....

My obsession with cats!! I don't know what it is..I just have a fascination with them..On my recent trip to Bali, I had the most incredible urge to buy all things catty! I bought 4 different kinds of cats, is it the ferrel like feature of these animals..what is it that makes me droll over cats...its wierd! I have 2 cats, and I miss them dearly..but it was never an obession until recently.Whenever I see a cat picture or a cat artwork, or sculputre I get all excited :) Cats are such languid animals...I jsut had an encounter with a "ragdoll" cat..now I never heard of a ragdoll but there she was all bushy and cuddly and cute..such a princess..and that was her name "Princess"!!She belongs to a certain family and I had the honour to meet thier little pet...ahhh...how I long for cats and dogs of my own.I can picture them now, in my yard playing,jumping ..having a jolly time. My dog (fictional of course as of now) which by the way is called Rex is a labrador...who inhabits my home(also finctatious as of now) which is 2 story bungalow with lots of land..(veven a corner) lot is ok..it has to be corner lot! Ahh..to own your own home...I cant wait to make it a reality....soon soon...

Oiiii!!! I'm trying to blog!: Its true-Men are NORMAL, Women come from Mars

Oiiii!!! I'm trying to blog!: Its true-Men are NORMAL, Women come from Mars

The meeting after 15 years

Today was a brilliant day!!! Not in a million years had I imagined that I would meet my first FOM and a friend after all these time! Just 2 weeks ago, I had told my friends about my first job and how I got started in this budget hotel and how my FOM gave me the motivation to move on..and lo and behold there it was..an e-mail from him to another friend of mine on some Punjabi food promo! I got a shock of my life when his name popped up and I called my friend and clarified and then I just shot off a mail. They next thing I know, he calls up and we're chatting like old friends. Damn !! it has been really a surprise. He also put me in tocuh witth my other friends all the old gang...I hope I get a reply from them.
God does work in mysterious ways...good things come at unexpected times, that makes it all the more sweeter. I hope that after this i won't lose touch anymore...it really made my day. Now back to my Business Planning..headache :(

Its true-Men are NORMAL, Women come from Mars

Today was pretty hectic! Spending time poring over business plans etc..figures,thinking,thinking,and more thinking. My brain has become so rusty of late I cant put my finger on it!!! I just feel so dumb sometimes..but then I tell myself I'm still new here..so have patience.
I am sooo damn lapar, I could eat a horse!!! There was this DVD I watched all by my lonesome self on "He's just n ot that into you" and its just so true. Women tend to put thier hopes up so high and then when things dont happen the way we want, we cry and sob and tell our girlfriends how life suck for us!!! I mean, just this evening , I was having a conversation with my friend about the same subject and we discussed how men are just so direct and not bothered about half the things we are bothered about. Like what to eat, and where to go, and what to wear. When you ask a man what to eat, they give you a direct answer-when women are asked what to eat-we whine and say I dont really know!! I mean whats up with that?? The list goes on but on e things for sure..Men Are really NORMAL and Women are the ones from MARS!

peek a boo

OK! Here's the thing, I've not been blogging for so long now I'm a bit rusty! I am now in my room with a bowl of fried rice and fruits watching the telly...quite boring stuff. I've moved again now to Vietnam. Life is good here..I think I'll eat first and blog after. Damn sleepy!! Finding it hard to write. I feel so knackered, having trouble sleeping, keep waking up in the middle of the night. I think my hormones are really acting up-crap!!! I hate that..getting older..everything changes,..whomever said that women age gracefully must have been nuts! I certainly don;t think so.

Dreams

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My make up stuff

I was in my bathroom the other day, preparing myself for work when I glanced at my vanity and realized just how much of stuff I used to get ready. A woman's life is not complete with just 1 kind of cream or make up-we have an assortment of it! I wasn't much of a make up person nor was I ever into all those creams that women use but lately as I'm maturing I realized how much it helps!!! I also realized just how much of stuff I need whenever I'm going on a short or long break-no wonder we carry a huge carry-on! So I thought I'd list down all the stuff I use on myself to help me appear better than usual:

Mary's list of things she can't live without (at least for now!):

For the face & hair:

1.Facial foam

2.Moisturizer

3.Toner

4.Eye cream

5.Foundation

6.Eye make up

7.Khol and eyeliner

8.Mascara

9.Lip liner(at least 3 colours)

10.Lipstick ( lots of that)

11.Blusher

12.Blusher brush

13.Eye brow pencil (at least 2 colors)

14.Facial cottons

15. Mousse

16.Hair relaxant

17.Hair bands/scarfs

18.Pimple cream

For the body:

1.Shower cream/bubble bath

2.Moisturizer

3.Special cream for the hands and feet

4.Nail clipper

5.Nail polish and remover.

Can you see the light?

Have you ever experienced a time when you had no electricity for an hour? You'd feel irritated or restless-now let's say you have to get through the day with 16 hours of no power!!! That's exactly what is happening here in Nepal. Load-shedding as it's most commonly called is nothing new around these parts-as one of the biggest resources in hydro power, one would imagine that the country could sustain itself! But in reality, up to now, nothing is being done to eliviate this problem. I am lucky to be living at the hotel, I am not directly affected but to hear my friends and colleagues raise the issue time and again, makes me as frustrated as they are!

Imagine if you may; shops, restaurants, cybercafes, all shut down because they have no power and what's worse is that they have no other means to obtain power either! Electric tempos that ply the busy streets of Kathmandu have no option but to go on strike in order to get the "authorities" to provide electricity to recharge! Generators, inverters cost a bomb! Diesel is scarce and at times like this, it is even more expensive to buy! What is going on here? Who is responsible for this? The blame game has already begun. It's affecting the lives of thousands of people here-I never would have imagined I would bear witness to such a situation but here I am-in the thick of it all!!!

Now it's a matter of watch and wait again-hoping against hope that solutions are found to this ever increasing frustration!

Back Home

I am back home for the holidays. It's good to be back with the family,the familiar surroundings,smells,sights,craziness, my cats,my room. Meeting friends certainly made the trip worthwhile too. I cleaned today, not having had the opportunity to do so in quite a while....it's so theraputic.It's been a trying 4 days also, having to see my mom's health slowly ebbing away. I feel a little guilty sometimes for not being here for her. She is alone and lonely, removed from everyone-I try to understand her but it's hard. I'm going over some sites to help me understand her illness and maybe find ways to try and deal with her condition. I pray every night for God to give her peace and I trust that HE will provide for her.I feel grateful that I have friends who are understanding and want to help in any way possible. When my brother's down, we will discuss what the next step will be. but for now, I'm glad I'm home and able to spend as much time as I can with my mother.

The "Onion Group" strikes again!!!!

Well, the "Onion group" delivered on their promise to lock us in! When we all arrived for our morning meeting at 9.30am this morning (8/12/08) we were all locked in with the exception of our "mini GM" and HR Mgr who were called out for negotiations to their demands! They did not even let us go to the loo at one point and we had to argue for a while for them to finally allow us to go. Of course food and drinks was out of the question! It was a small room however and there were about 10 of us there,so we played games and kept ourselves occupied. We covered all sorts of topic from politics to religion to mundane stuff just to make sure we were always in high spirits. Amidst all this, some of us even managed to catch some zzzz's...
Suffice to sat it was a real emotional ordeal but we tried not to show it, while all this was going on the group themselves parked in front of the meeting room, though I'm pretty sure they had food and drinks!
After about 6 hours in lock down, the issue was finally resolved! What an ordeal! After which then group had the audacity to "thank"us for our cooperation! This is truly an experience and one that will be in my memory for a while. I don't know if there will be anymore of such acts but there is always a first for everything and THIS was certainly a first!
So I'm now counting down the days,eagerly waiting for my departure even for a temporary while away from this maddening place!

10 more days

10 more days to go!! wohooo!!!!! This anticipation is killing me.Time seems to be moving too slow. I've been so efficient that I've even finished packing,done my Christmas shopping, now all I need to do is to wait!! Wait!Wait!!
I'm listening to INXS right now, ahhh...I remember driving in my car on my way back from JB-Kuantan,the music blaring loudly to keep me awake on my journey..those were the days. I haven't driven in 6 whole months..it'll feel a bit awkward I suppose.
Well, tomorrow apparently our good people from the "Onion group" intends to lock some of us inside the office over some dispute that is not our fault anyway! Well, let's see what will happen! It's a bloody farce I tell you! The only thing these guys know how to do perfectly is going on strike and locking people up!
I really cannot wait to get out and let my hair down! Ahh...to be back home with my family and cats and bed...10 more days and counting!!!

Looking for Rex!

I WANT A DOG!!!! And I specifically want THIS one!! I'm thinking that if I write it down maybe the universe will send me one! (Interval..It's Beyonce!!! If I were a boy") wohhooo...I so LOVE this song!!!

Ok..back to my dog! It's a lab and his name is Rex! That's what I'll name him and he'll live in a big house(corner lot) of course with lots of running space!! ahhhh...I so want a doggie...

OK...so universe..do your thing!!

a lot of stuff

I'm sitting in my room going through pictures of yest years...all those wonderful moments.I laughed aloud reminiscing old times.It's not like I'm that old! all the more I want to go home soon. I can't wait! It feels like a drag...looking back I think I've grown up a lot,from the way I looked and my dress sense..I suppose. Don't know if I HAVE a dress sense! I'm listening to Hitz.fm and David Cook is on the radio...ahhhh...sigh!!!!

I'm having trouble sleeping these past weeks, must be coz I have so many things on my mind..plus the idiot box is trying it's best to hypnotize me and making me watch all these tv shows which in the end proves useless to me! Well at least the Travel & Living is good,that's my whole addiction now,ever since it came I've been like a "jakun" not wanting to miss anything!!!!

I have a mind to place a sign on my TV saying "the Idiot Box-the biggest time waster"! Tonight I aim to go to sleep by 10pm! I will not compromise this and I will have to..HAVE to get up and work out!!!! It was a regular activity for me but ever since winter came I've been like a bear, only wanting to hibernate and not get up!!Help!! Help!!! The chamomile tea helps a bit..it sooths me..but I cant be drinking that all the time! Today I wanted to go shopping but then I decided to forgo it -been shopping quite a bit lately-must be therapeutic, probably that's the only thing I can do! I wonder what I'll say in briefing tomorrow, sometimes I feel so pressured to say something or else the GM would say.."What,sure you have nothing to say??" What's with that??? If everything is said before, then what else to say?? Morning meeting is the worst part of the day for me...maybe I need to tell myself that it's the best part of the day.coz it IS a meeting/briefing;there must be something to say. Most of the time, meetings can turn into lectures in some form or other..and it's constant repetition of the same thing!! I really wish I could shake some of the people here!! SHAKE!! SHAKE!!! Give their brains a Big jiggle in order to work.

I wonder...well here's to going to bed early and getting up early too.. :)

Change is coming!

I've got the dreaded flu!! I hate being weak, nose all runny,eyes all watery..recovery taking too long, I have so much to do!I'm contemplating my i week in Mumbai. Though it's already now 2 weeks since I came back, so much had transpired there and still the activities and converstations are fresh in my mind. I did a lot of "reflective" thinking while I was out there, had some eye opening conversations too-boy sometimes you can't see who you are till someone tell it to your face! It was so good to hear the truth and now it makes me want to push myself even more!

Meeting people from the other parts of the world gave me a real jolt-damn, so many of them are good! Where do I fall into all this? I asked myself. Why me?? Well there must have been some reason I was chosen, right? Then, I realized there was. I learnt to not take charge for once, to let others do the work, I sat back and observed and facilitated...it was a strange feeling..but I got used to it,finally. I think I did a pretty good job too. I became mentor to some...that was a great feeling-to be able to contribute to something.

But more than that, I realized that I had a lot of growing to do. Enough of playing-it was time to take serious stock of my career...I knew that if I wanted to achive my goal..I had, simply had to get ahead!

Change- is what I'm aiming for..just like Barrack Obama wants for the US...."Change is coming" he said...well it certainly IS, for me! I WANT to change, I WILL change, I AM change!!!

C H A N G E.........

Live from Mumbai

Coming live from Mumbai...it's Mary J...wow!! it;s finally here..the training of all training...it's The Business Of Training. Nervousness setting in, excitement somewhere in between, palms are a bit clammy,heart beating a little faster, what to expect? who do I meet? Act and BE confident!!! Thats the key.Be myself and all will be fine.

Wish me luck!Good luck Mary!! You are the best!

The One

This morning while getting ready for work, a thought came to my mind about finding "The One". Who is "The One"? Where can I find him, will I know if he is "The One" and how will I know? All women go through this stage of asking this question I think, and now it's my turn. Having loved and lost-heart broken...is there truly "The One" out there for me? Is he also going through the same motion-wondering where he can find his "One". Are men just as anxious as women are when finding love? They are better at hiding thier emotions than women are...

The One-I would love to meet him someday..I hope he is looking for me. Come find me quick, save me from myself, save me from unwanted temptations..that are everywhere...

Maybe this hope of finding "The One" will keep me focused, and help me move on...I admit I AM a bit shallow.. I'm trying to see past the physical aspects and look deeper into the heart because I have learnt that most of them who look "beautiful" are snakes in disguise.

So, here's to finding "The One"...let's hope it's worth the while..

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