Looking for Rex!

I WANT A DOG!!!! And I specifically want THIS one!! I'm thinking that if I write it down maybe the universe will send me one! (Interval..It's Beyonce!!! If I were a boy") wohhooo...I so LOVE this song!!!

Ok..back to my dog! It's a lab and his name is Rex! That's what I'll name him and he'll live in a big house(corner lot) of course with lots of running space!! ahhhh...I so want a doggie...

OK...so universe..do your thing!!

a lot of stuff

I'm sitting in my room going through pictures of yest years...all those wonderful moments.I laughed aloud reminiscing old times.It's not like I'm that old! all the more I want to go home soon. I can't wait! It feels like a drag...looking back I think I've grown up a lot,from the way I looked and my dress sense..I suppose. Don't know if I HAVE a dress sense! I'm listening to Hitz.fm and David Cook is on the radio...ahhhh...sigh!!!!

I'm having trouble sleeping these past weeks, must be coz I have so many things on my mind..plus the idiot box is trying it's best to hypnotize me and making me watch all these tv shows which in the end proves useless to me! Well at least the Travel & Living is good,that's my whole addiction now,ever since it came I've been like a "jakun" not wanting to miss anything!!!!

I have a mind to place a sign on my TV saying "the Idiot Box-the biggest time waster"! Tonight I aim to go to sleep by 10pm! I will not compromise this and I will have to..HAVE to get up and work out!!!! It was a regular activity for me but ever since winter came I've been like a bear, only wanting to hibernate and not get up!!Help!! Help!!! The chamomile tea helps a bit..it sooths me..but I cant be drinking that all the time! Today I wanted to go shopping but then I decided to forgo it -been shopping quite a bit lately-must be therapeutic, probably that's the only thing I can do! I wonder what I'll say in briefing tomorrow, sometimes I feel so pressured to say something or else the GM would say.."What,sure you have nothing to say??" What's with that??? If everything is said before, then what else to say?? Morning meeting is the worst part of the day for me...maybe I need to tell myself that it's the best part of the day.coz it IS a meeting/briefing;there must be something to say. Most of the time, meetings can turn into lectures in some form or other..and it's constant repetition of the same thing!! I really wish I could shake some of the people here!! SHAKE!! SHAKE!!! Give their brains a Big jiggle in order to work.

I wonder...well here's to going to bed early and getting up early too.. :)

Change is coming!

I've got the dreaded flu!! I hate being weak, nose all runny,eyes all watery..recovery taking too long, I have so much to do!I'm contemplating my i week in Mumbai. Though it's already now 2 weeks since I came back, so much had transpired there and still the activities and converstations are fresh in my mind. I did a lot of "reflective" thinking while I was out there, had some eye opening conversations too-boy sometimes you can't see who you are till someone tell it to your face! It was so good to hear the truth and now it makes me want to push myself even more!

Meeting people from the other parts of the world gave me a real jolt-damn, so many of them are good! Where do I fall into all this? I asked myself. Why me?? Well there must have been some reason I was chosen, right? Then, I realized there was. I learnt to not take charge for once, to let others do the work, I sat back and observed and facilitated...it was a strange feeling..but I got used to it,finally. I think I did a pretty good job too. I became mentor to some...that was a great feeling-to be able to contribute to something.

But more than that, I realized that I had a lot of growing to do. Enough of playing-it was time to take serious stock of my career...I knew that if I wanted to achive my goal..I had, simply had to get ahead!

Change- is what I'm aiming for..just like Barrack Obama wants for the US...."Change is coming" he said...well it certainly IS, for me! I WANT to change, I WILL change, I AM change!!!

C H A N G E.........

Live from Mumbai

Coming live from Mumbai...it's Mary J...wow!! it;s finally here..the training of all training...it's The Business Of Training. Nervousness setting in, excitement somewhere in between, palms are a bit clammy,heart beating a little faster, what to expect? who do I meet? Act and BE confident!!! Thats the key.Be myself and all will be fine.

Wish me luck!Good luck Mary!! You are the best!

The One

This morning while getting ready for work, a thought came to my mind about finding "The One". Who is "The One"? Where can I find him, will I know if he is "The One" and how will I know? All women go through this stage of asking this question I think, and now it's my turn. Having loved and lost-heart broken...is there truly "The One" out there for me? Is he also going through the same motion-wondering where he can find his "One". Are men just as anxious as women are when finding love? They are better at hiding thier emotions than women are...

The One-I would love to meet him someday..I hope he is looking for me. Come find me quick, save me from myself, save me from unwanted temptations..that are everywhere...

Maybe this hope of finding "The One" will keep me focused, and help me move on...I admit I AM a bit shallow.. I'm trying to see past the physical aspects and look deeper into the heart because I have learnt that most of them who look "beautiful" are snakes in disguise.

So, here's to finding "The One"...let's hope it's worth the while..

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A new Chapter.....

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CHAPTER CHAPTER

BEGINS......... BEGINS..........

My Adventure

I'm just back from my little adventure and boy was it really!! It was absolutely amazing. The beauty, the people, the company-everyting and more than I ever thought. I told myself that I would enjoy this vacation even if I was going alone and I DID!!! I'm glad I did coz my heart is aching now-at least this trip can help me ease the pain I'm feeling. Whenever I feel it, or it creeps into my mind/heart- I will recall all the brave things I did and accomplished. If I could go on a trip to a place I barely know, then I face almost anything!
I took a journal with me and logged down my thoughts and feelings without missing a beat, it was my confidante of sorts when I was lonely or alone. In quiet times, I sat with my book in hand and wrote anything and everything that came to me.
I'm recalling two songs from Gabrielle " Rise Again" and " Out of Reach" songs that have been my companion in times of healing, and they are with me once again, for it appears that I need to do some healing fast!
But hey, this is about my adventure- not sappy story!!! So get out of this rut, Mary you are a brave and strong woman and are deserving of so much more!